Sunday, March 7, 2010

The God of Small Things


It was ____. In a heart-wrenching/I-didn't-really-realize-it-was-____-until-a-few-hours-after-I-finished-it sort of a way.
I might have liked it in the same way that I liked All The King's Men. It might even be a little like All the King's Men, except in South India. It's kind of about everything. Corruption, Christianity, caste and untouchability, communism, democracy, Hinduism, the desire to ruin other people, good smells, bad smells, factory conditions, sexual harassment, jealousy, violence, disempowered women, police brutality, flowers, authority, the unfairness of adult decisions, the inability of adults to understand the minds of children, innocence taken away....but more than all of these things, it's about love. Fatherly love, love between twins, motherly love, desire, forbidden love, incest, love between cousins, an uncle's love, inappropriate love. It's about breaking the "Love Laws. That lay down who should be loved. And how. And how much."
And more than about love, it's about the way it's told. The plot twists are kind of sad and horrifying and ugly and throat-lump-y. But the prose is funny in the way where you laugh and then feel bad about the fact that you laughed out loud and are glad that no one knows what you just read and laughed at. Because the parts you laugh at are the ones told from the children's points of view--the painfully honest and hilariously sarcastic or ironic observations that only children can make and describe out loud because taboos and social norms and adulthood keep you from outwardly observing or talking about or laughing at such awkward or hurtful or vulnerable things. The narrator and the children point out, very clearly, both the ugly things and the beautiful things that end up being the most powerful human motivations, which propel the entire series of events of the story. Arundhati Roy did pretty ____ with this novel.

I still haven't quite absorbed or processed the whole thing. Maybe I'll be able to fill in the ____'s sometime.
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"Little events, ordinary things, smashed and reconstituted. Imbued with new meaning. Suddenly they become the bleached bones of a story."
-The God of Small Things

"And the air was full of Thoughts and Things to Say. But at times like these only the Small Things are ever said. The Big Things lurk unsaid inside."
-The God of Small Things

"If you're happy in a dream, does that count?"
-The God of Small Things

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Excursions and Adventures

Bharatpur and Agra was a whirlwind weekend trip. We went to the Keoladeo Bird Sanctuary in Bharatpur, but ended up seeing very few birds. Because of the dry monsoon season last year, the parts of the sanctuary that are generally wet have all fried up. We ended up biking on gravely paths for 6 hours and getting accosted regularly by bands of monkeys. The bike riding was interesting--the "one-size-for-all"bike was so big for me that at the lowest point the pedal goes, my toe barely reached. However, I am proud to say that I learned to mount the bike rapidly, and got pretty good at falling sideways to dismount! At night, staying at the Falcon Guesthouse with an energetic Punjabi hostess, was delightful.



Agra was a fast day. Marty, Claire, and I boarded our train, got to Agra, and went straight to the Taj, where foreigner price is 750 Rs. and Indian price is 20 Rs. They assumed I was Indian and I was very happy to receive the 3750% discount. Instead of waiting in line, we paid a man who has connections with the men that tear tickets at the gate (who does this professionally) and skipped the long queue (cutting in front of everyone else). The Taj Mahal was as majestic as promised, and looks just as stunningly fake in real life as it does in pictures in books, on pamphlets, and on the internet. Though I had braced myself for the worst surrounding environment possible, I found that I was not nearly as harassed as I thought I would be, and got to the Taj with Claire and Marty relatively without a hitch. We took all the necessary tourist pictures and had a good time.


Next, we went to the Agra Fort, from which one gets more views of the Taj from across the river. The Agra Fort itself is gorgeous, with manicured lawns, gorgeous archways, and different types of architecture everywhere.


From there, we boarded a bus back to Jaipur, making it back around 2am.

The next weekend, we went to Haridwar and Rishikesh. We reached Haridwar on the day of Shivratri, one of the holy days of the Kumbh Mela. Our bus ride was surprisingly lovely, but as soon as we stepped out, we were in an entirely different world. All buses coming into Haridwar had been re-routed to stop in the middle of a huge dirt field right outside of the city. We stepped right into a sea of yelling, begging, and general crowded chaos. The entire city had been closed, due to the fact that approximately 5 million pilgrims were walking through it to get to the holy points of the Ganges. "According to Hindu mythology, Haridwar is one of the four places where a drop of the nectar of immortality or 'amrit' fell from the pitcher or 'kumbh' when Garuda, the divine bird of Lord Vishnu, was spiriting it away from the demons after a pitched battle. " (http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/india/Thousands-of-devotees-at-Maha-Kumbh-for-Mahashivratri-bath-/articleshow/5563997.cms) THe pilgrims are to start their holy dips in the Ganges after midnight. Anyway, as soon as we got off the bus around noon, we were informed that no buses were really coming in or out of the city anymore, which posed a bit of a problem, since we had hotel reservations for Rishikesh that night. Luckily, as we went around trying to eavesdrop on conversations our fellow passengers were having over the sounds of the loudspeakers repeating "dhakka-mukki bilkul mat kijiye! (Do not push each other at all!)", we heard a couple of people talking to a police man nearby mention Rishikesh. We decided to attach ourselves to them. The very sweet brother and sister (both probably in their 20s) took care of us as if we were family. We alternately took cycle rikshaws (the only form of transportation available then) and walked with them (and with 5 million other pilgrims) in Haridwar for about two hours, and the brother told us that he would not leave us until he had us on an auto to Rishikesh, which is exactly where he got us. We boarded the lovely huge autorickshaw with 5 others and the driver, and made it to Rishikesh in 30 minutes!

We fell in love with Rishikesh as soon as we reached it. Nestled in the foothills of the Himalayas on the banks of the Ganga, surrounded by Ashrams, locals, and new-age hippies just trying to find themselves, we seriously contemplated never leaving. We wandered around the Lakshman Jhula area that night and scouted out the white water rafting place, Red Chili. We woke up early the next morning, and had the best breakfast of our lives at the Flying Tiger Cafe, a new-age restaurant owned by the woman from Chicago who wears lovely plaid-shirt-and-saree or saree-and-blazer combinations and serves the most amazing food. We came back for lunch (papaya lassis, tofu and mushroom burger with avacado and yak cheese and beet cole slaw and chips) and breakfast (thick whole-wheat bread with liberal amounts of butter and apricot jam; pancakes with ginger, cocoa powder, butter, and bananas) the next day.










That day, we white water rafted (with Bheem and jeevan as our guides, +3 men in kayaks as our rescue team) through rapids with names such as "Hugs and Kisses," "Three Blind Mice," "Crossfire," and "Return to Sender." We body surfed some of them, too and were, you know, cleansed of all our sins! Then, we jumped in from some boulders about 20 feet high. The latter part of the day, we explored more of the area, sat on the banks of the Ganges listening to an old man with long hair and beard play beautiful flute pieces, and went to an amazing terrace restaurant with unreal views of the Ganges for dinner. Oh, and then we learned that the bus we booked back to Jaipur was canceled.






So, the next morning, we left early (first to the Flying Tiger Cafe, of course) and found a bus to Delhi, hoping to get back to Jaipur from there. When we got into Delhi, a few rickshaw drivers followed us around as usual, and took us to a travel agency. We booked a bus back to Jaipur, but had to be driven to the boarding place of the bus. We got back into a small rickshaw (Claire, me, Ali, and Katie in the back, Amanda in front with the driver and a man from the travel agency). On the way to the boarding place, our rickshaw...hit a cycle with two men on it. Our rickshaw driver jumped out, and from there, everything happened fast. About 20 men gathered, the ones on the cycle had their belts off and hands around our rickshaw driver's neck before I could even blink! We stayed in the rickshaw, hurriedly discussing whether it would be safer to jump out and run, or to stay inside, but as this was going on, our rickshaw driver jumped back in, only to have a man come on the other side of the rickshaw, where Amanda was sitting, and trying to punch our rickshaw driver by reaching over Amanda (but really, he would have hit Amanda in the face in the process). Protective mother-lion side kicking into gear, Claire pointed very emphatically at the aggressor, shouting NO! Which apparently was enough for him to top and stare confusedly at the rickshaw packed full of foreigners. Shaken up and yelling, our rickshaw-walla drove us to the street where we were to be picked up. This narrow street, we realized, was pretty much in the middle of the Indian version of a ghetto, and the sun had just set. There was no sign of a bus, but thankfully, as we discussed this fact, it drove up, barely fitting in the skinny lane. We boarded the bus, which seemed very nice, and hoped for the best. An hour into the trip, we realized that the goal of the bus driver/travel agency was to pack the bus with as many people as possible, most of whom apparently wanted to keep the windows open all night. In two sweaters and a sweatshirt, I shivered through the night as the man in front of me coughed up a lung every few minutes (and went out for a smoke at every stop). Cold, tired, and back in Jaipur at 5am, we crashed in our beds to catch a few hours of sleep before going to class, after what was perhaps a little-too-eventful of a trip!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I am so never leaving my bedroom door open again.

From the corner of my eye, I saw my bedroom door opening, and something small peeking its head in, and thought it was the boy that stays at my host family's house as a live-in servant, Shiv. About to ask him to come in, I looked up to see a big, hairy monkey. The monkey hopped right in and onto my desk (two feet away from where I was sitting at the edge of my bed), extended his long arm and lightly plucked the bag of chips and snacks right off my desk. Then he stared at me for a second, as I stared back dumbfounded (the news story about the pet monkey that ripped a woman's face off in the States was playing through my head). I slowly stood up, about to make a run past the monkey for the door, but the monkey, who probably thought I was coming for him, was faster. He nimbly hopped out the door, bag of snacks in hand, and disappeared back up the stairs. I ran downstairs to my host mother, shaking slightly from the adrenaline rush, and sputtered that a monkey had just taken snacks from my bedroom. She laughed at the shaken look on my face and called Shiv, asking him to make sure to shut the terrace door next time. Hopefully, the monkey is out of the house now...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Jaisalmer

Date this blogpost was written: 1 February 2010

Jaisalmer was wonderful, though the trip did not go exactly as planned. We wanted to go to Jaisalmer mainly to see the Desert Festival, but after a 10 hour night-long ride bumping to Shakira, Britney, NSYNC remixed with techno beats (the CD our driver had on loop), we made our entry into the city. We awoke to a blood red sunrise in gray skies and a vastly different landscape--small shrubs and lots of sand, with camels and peacocks on the side of the road rather than the usual cows and dogs-- and were welcomed with military men and army tanks, which were coming down the road we were going up at regular intervals (at which point Claire gave the quote of the trip--"if we end up in Pakistan, I'm gonna be pissed!".

We arrived at Fort Rajwada around 9am Saturday morning with strained necks and backaches, eardrums still thumping to "Sandstorm" beats and Shakira tunes. We had been told that was where we were going to stay. As we stepped out of the van ready to step into the hotel, our contact came, told us to get back in the van, and took us to Pithli Haveli--the smaller, less-swanky version of Fort Rajwada across the street. As soon as we reached our new (still nice) destination, we were informed that the state government of Rajasthan had cancelled the last day of the Desert Festival (the day we reached) because a Minister had died the night before. So, we went to the Golden Fort and explored, did some shopping, ate at a nice little restaurant overlooking the Fort called Little Italy, and made our way back to our rooms, where we were decided to watch Lagaan. We passed out about 10 minutes into the movie.

The next day, we relaxed in the morning (I completed some applications) and went into the Fort area to get some sweets to give to our wonderful driver. On our way back, the rickshaw Claire, Marty, and I decided to take broke down, and we took pity and offered the driver 10 Rs. (1/4 of the decided price) for the 1 minute (about 1/15 of the way back) we had spent in it; the driver yelled he would not take a rupee less than 20 Rs. As I yelled back, about 20 other men crowded around us in the busy intersection; this ended up being a good thing, because I told my rickshaw driver I would only give him 20 Rs. if someone was willing to take me and my friends all the way to our hotel for another 20 Rs. (since the agreed price had been 40 Rs.)-- one of the other rickshaw drivers in the group of men crowded around us calmly told me he would take us for the price I wanted, and all ended up fine. Sunday evening, we headed to the Sam dunes for our sunset camel ride, which was just as lovely as promised, minus the man who drunkenly followed us (on a camel, mind you) through the dunes--but no worries, our camel drivers guarded us and chased him away! We then had chai and ate dinner to a Rajasthani dance and music show sitting around a fire under the stars.

Our 21-year-old driver, Vinod Bhaiyya, drove us back Sunday night, getting us back into Jaipur at 7:30 am; I was elected to sit up front with him around 4:30 am to talk to him in my broken Hindi and keep him awake. After just prodding him with a couple of questions, he talked to me freely for two hours straight--about how he cannot understand any Gujarati, his craziest past driving trips, how loved he is in his village (he decided to drive us through his village on the way back), his neighbors, his family--father and two brothers, and about the fact that he's been a driver since he was 18 years old--he had to drop out of school to support his family in 10th grade because of his mother's death. He asked me what driving was like in America, and then about what there was to see in there--Rajasthan has beautiful forts and palaces and temples, he said, so what is there to see in America besides clean roads? (I was not sure how to answer-- all I could think about to see in America was the White House, which Vinod Bhaiyya was not very impressed with. So, I tried to tell him about Obama, who he had never heard about, and all the different types of people one can meet, and about college and education, but he was still unimpressed, so I turned the conversation back to his life. He confidently stated that Jaipur is the most beautiful city in India and in the world.)

I went home, slept for 2 hours, and went to class at 10am.

Over all, certainly a successful, perhaps a little too-eventful trip. Next on the list are Bharatpur/Agra, Haridwar/Rishikesh, and Ahmedabad!

Expect a post about my experiences with Indian attitudes, culture, and educational system sometime soon...

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Amrikan in India

As I walked down the street in Jaipur on a study abroad orientation assignment to find Reliance Fresh, I realized this Indian experience would be significantly different from those that I have had over the past two summers. First of all, my Hindi-that-sounds-like-Gujarati is going to give away that I am not from Jaipur, meaning rikshaw drivers are going to try to rip me off right off the bat. Second of all, if that does not give me away, the fact that I am walking down the street with a gaggle of non-Indians will definitely draw stares, often accompanied by shouts of "hello!" "thank you please!" and even a witty rikshaw driver saying "I will give you a ride at no expense!"

As soon as I start speaking in English with an American accent with fellow student travellers, I am no longer just another Indian in India. It will be interesting to see how my new conspicuousness affects the relationships I form and the many interesting interactions I am sure to have in the next few weeks. More significantly, maybe I'll be able to do some self-reflection: What does it mean for me to be an Indian in America? What about an American in India, or more precisely, an Indian American in India?

I love India. I love America. I've been asked many times by people from both countries--which do you like better? Where do you want to live? And I honestly have no answer. I love both--in fact, I AM both, and there really is no splitting them up.

As for where I want to live when I grow up, I suppose I'll need an answer to that some day. But for now, I am completely enjoying my life in both worlds. I think I'll continue it for a bit longer.

**Note: for anyone wanting another perspective of this trip from a fellow student traveler, check out Claire's blog: claireinindia.tumblr.com

Joey's blog: joeygoestoindia.blogspot.com
Scott's blog: againstvanity.blogspot.com

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Hamara Mantra: Jai Jagat! Hamara Tantra: Swach Gaam

Our mantra: Hail to the World! Our Goal: A Clean Village

DAY 1

September 6,7 and 8 were days that were almost as perfect as they get. I traveled in the Nandini Van, which is a bus equipped with all sorts of facilities, with the Learning Journey group from the UK and some Manav Sadhna staff and volunteers, and Jayeshbhai, co-founder of Manav Sadhna. Amal, Biney, Nishma, me, and a few others sat on one part of the bus while the rest of the Learning Journey group sat in the other half singing as loudly as possible.

First, we stopped in a small village, where they had prepared a large lunch for us--the whole village was waiting outside and had set up cots with quilts on them for us to sit on under the shade of trees. They served us with love and we ate to our stomachs' content (well, actually, probably more than our stomachs were content to eat, which tends to happen a lot in India) and we served them after we were done eating. Then, we talked to the whole small village which had gathered and went to see their organic farm--children grabbed our hands and took us there. They picked us some fresh beans to eat and raced around the farm. Then, we wall went to the town well, where Harry jumped in and Dharmesh and Biney proceeded to get me and another girl soaking wet. No worries though, in the September Gujarati heat, we dried up within half an hour.

When we reached the village (gaam) in which we were to stay for the next two nights, Pimpal, hundreds of its residents gathered around the bus and car which we arrived in, playing dholaks and welcoming us with kankoo and rice tilaks on our foreheads. Jayeshbhai spoke to the village on the stage which was located on a large open ground in the village, and our host families came to take us to their homes.

...lots more later...

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Research and Relationships

On Sunday, my day off, I started and finished the book "Gang Leader for a Day" by Sudhir Venkatesh. It's a pretty amazing book--if you haven't read it, you should. It's about a naive UChicago sociology grad school student who goes into a low-income housing project area called Robert Taylor to get subjects to answer a multiple choice survey that his professors have assigned him. He ends up being held hostage at gunpoint by a gang leader and then becoming friends with him. He gets much more out of the relationships he builds while talking to tenants and gang members living in these project areas than he would have gotten by simply having them answer survey questions. He ends up receiving a Harvard Fellowship and is now a professor at Columbia. An englightening, true story, it's a great book to read, especially for someone foraying into the world of development research for the first time.

Here are a couple quotes/excerpts that especially stuck with me, as feelings that I'm experiencing to some degree:

"No one back at the U of C had prepared me to feel such strong emtional connections to the people I studied. None of the ethnographic studies I'd read offered much guidance about the relationships a researcher formed during fieldwork and how to manage them. The books talked about the right way to ask a question or address a respondent during an interview, but little about managing relationships with the people you hung out with" (43-44).

"People who knew nothing about me nevertheless took me inside their wrld, talked to me with such openness, and offered me the food that they had probably budgeted for their own children" (43).
This last quote is just as true as it is surprising, even in India. If a person has invited me into their home, whether it be a bungalow, a flat, or a tent made out of tarp, he or she always offers me food and tea. Ajaybhai, who is one of the staff members at Manav Sadhna who lives in a nearby slum area, invited me to his home, where I met his mother and sister. I sat with them for about an hour, and looked through an entire album of his 22 year old sister's wedding, which happened a couple months ago. The openness with which him, his family, and everyone that I've met at Manav Sadhna share their lives with me is astounding. I don't think that many people experience the kind of genuineness that I've experienced in the past couple summers.

Of course, not every research subject is open or willing to answer questions--yesterday, I went into a slum area that government and NGO implementers do not frequent very often, and slumdwellers don't get or aren't aware of many services that other slumdwellers living closer to an NGO get and are aware of. As a result, many of those slumdwellers were not very keen on answering any of the questions that I had. When I asked them about who they go to for help with certain needs and services, they started talking in raised voices, crowding around me while I tried to interview one of them, and kept pushing my arm to make a point--"people like you come around here all the time, to study poor people like us, asking us questions, and writing our names down. But no one actually helps us. Some people come and take money from us so that we can fill out forms. What are YOU doing? Are YOU actually going to help us? No, you'll just 'study' us, write your report for college, write our names, and never come back." It's useless to try to explain to them that their responses could help form policies that could then help other people in the future. And of course it's useless--why would people who live day to day, not knowing if they will have food to eat the next day, want to spend their time answering questions that probably will not even directly help them?

Sudhir Venkatesh wrote: "I, meanwhile, grew evasive and withdrawn--in large part out of guilt. Within just a few months at Harvard, I began making a name for myself in academia by talking about the inner workings of street gangs. While I hoped to contribute to the national discussion on poverty, I was not so foolish as to believe that my research would specifically benefit J.T. or the tenant families from whom I'd learned so much" (277).

By volunteering with Manav Sadhna, the NGO with whom I'm working closely and who is helping me get subjects to interview in the slums, I feel like I'm at least giving a little bit back to the community. I teach English to a staff member and to some 20 7th-9th grade slum children. Sudhir Venkatesh says in his book that he started a writing program for women living in Robert Taylor to try to cope with the guilt of not being able to directly help the tenants.

In the end, I don't really know how to solve the dilemma of knowing that the subjects that I am interviewing will never actually directly reap any benefits that may come from the results of my research. But maybe, just maybe, the next generation of people living in this slum area will have access to better services because government departments and NGOs working in them will be able to create more effective development project models.